Tried swimming laps today for a workout today and its awesome!! So many calories burned and my whole body is sore!
Also.. Today is a super exciting day for Lisa from The Saucy Bandster because its her wedding day! Congrats my sweet banded blogging friend!! So happy for her!!!
I hope everyone has a fab weekend!!
Saturday, April 13, 2013
Friday, April 12, 2013
Candy Crush
Has anyone ever gotten sucked into the rotten evil that is Candy Crush?? it's a "free" game and I'll tell you what ... it will make you hate chocolate. And if you play long enough you won't have any money left to buy groceries.
Thursday, April 11, 2013
Good Day
Today was such a good day, it's been a long time since I have had this kind of motivation. I followed a good liquid diet today. My esophagus is still a bit swollen I can tell by the amount of restriction I have and by the fact that I was only hungry once today. I have a slightly soar throat that goes down into my chest a bit, but that's pretty much it.
I drank 5 glorious bottles of water (same bottle refilled for my environmentalist friends) 1 sobe life water and a cup of coffee and a protein shake today. Sweet mother effing relief!!
What a difference being hydrated makes.
I went to the Y tonight and I worked out harder than I have in months. Since June I've just been going through the motions... Today I worked out hard like I did when I was losing 4 or 5 lbs a week. I feel good. I prayed for motivation and received it now its up to me to sustain it.
I want to set a goal of losing 7 lbs a month for the rest of the year. It not excessive and it's totally doable. I'm going to share it with my doctor for some accountability. My husband will probably be on board but it will take him half the time to lose twice as much weight ;)
Hope everyone has had a fab week I sure have missed reading everyone's blogs! I get so much inspiration from all of these lovely ladies!!!
I drank 5 glorious bottles of water (same bottle refilled for my environmentalist friends) 1 sobe life water and a cup of coffee and a protein shake today. Sweet mother effing relief!!
What a difference being hydrated makes.
I went to the Y tonight and I worked out harder than I have in months. Since June I've just been going through the motions... Today I worked out hard like I did when I was losing 4 or 5 lbs a week. I feel good. I prayed for motivation and received it now its up to me to sustain it.
I want to set a goal of losing 7 lbs a month for the rest of the year. It not excessive and it's totally doable. I'm going to share it with my doctor for some accountability. My husband will probably be on board but it will take him half the time to lose twice as much weight ;)
Hope everyone has had a fab week I sure have missed reading everyone's blogs! I get so much inspiration from all of these lovely ladies!!!
Wednesday, April 10, 2013
Great News
Turns out I couldn't wait until Thursday. My esophagus kept getting worse and I ended up not being able to drink water or anything at all. So the PA that normally does my fills squeezed me in at lunch time and she took all of tHe fluid from my band ... I can't even explain the relief!! I was dying of thirst and that first big swig of water was so good! The pressure and pain in my chest was relieved and it didn't hurt to breathe! Thank goodness.
I went right over to the hospital for a barium swallow to see if the band had slipped or if I had a dialated esophagus... And much to my surprise... Neither!!! My band was just too tight and my esophagus was (and still is) very irritated. But no serious damage!!! thank The Lord!!!
My band will be empty for 4 weeks and I need to be on liquids for at least 2 more days while also taking Prilosec to help soothe the irritation.
So I'm going to take this time to restart... Get back into a work out plan, get my band adjusted on a monthly basis. I think being accountable every month will really change my whole attitude around.
The really good news in this story is that in the first four months of having my band I lost 72 or 74lbs. Over the past year I have gained 30 lbs back. That sounds really terrible but it is actually a victory for me.. Until now I've always gained 110% + back within months. I'm going to forgive myself for the weight gain and keep on trucking! I'd like to get down to 200 lbs by my 2 year bandiversary!
I went right over to the hospital for a barium swallow to see if the band had slipped or if I had a dialated esophagus... And much to my surprise... Neither!!! My band was just too tight and my esophagus was (and still is) very irritated. But no serious damage!!! thank The Lord!!!
My band will be empty for 4 weeks and I need to be on liquids for at least 2 more days while also taking Prilosec to help soothe the irritation.
So I'm going to take this time to restart... Get back into a work out plan, get my band adjusted on a monthly basis. I think being accountable every month will really change my whole attitude around.
The really good news in this story is that in the first four months of having my band I lost 72 or 74lbs. Over the past year I have gained 30 lbs back. That sounds really terrible but it is actually a victory for me.. Until now I've always gained 110% + back within months. I'm going to forgive myself for the weight gain and keep on trucking! I'd like to get down to 200 lbs by my 2 year bandiversary!
Tuesday, April 9, 2013
No News Until Thursday!
Dr. Yoo said he could see me on Thursday! So I guess it's not a huge concern for him which is cool with me. Yesterday was tough, all liquids was easy because if how I felt, but I also had 3 fillings removed and replaced. Top that with a headache and I was ready to go to bed early last night.
Hopefully today is better! Sticking with my protein and water diet today. At least Ill lose a good amount of weight this week!
Hopefully today is better! Sticking with my protein and water diet today. At least Ill lose a good amount of weight this week!
Sunday, April 7, 2013
Slipped? Hopefully.
A week or so ago, I was driving to work and said a desperate prayer asking God to take over for me because I clearly cannot control my issue with eating. I needed help to stop my obsessive overeating and I needed motivation to get moving and work out. I haven't completely failed at this band thing, but I will if something doesn't change.
The will power from saying that prayer lasted about a half a day and I fell back into my daily binge. Just like a damn drug addict I would imagine.
Friday night, I drank a margarita and something felt weird about it. Sometimes when I drink out of a straw I get tight and gassy feeling, but this one was a little more uncomfortable. I ate a little dinner afterwards and boxed up the rest.
The next day I didn't eat until about 3:00. Took one bite and felt stuck. Not horrible stuck, just do-not-put-another-bite-near-your-mouth-for-at-least-5-minutes-stuck.
Later that night I started feeling weird. My esophagus felt swollen and I felt like I had something stuck in my throat. I tried drinking cold water, hot water with honey, and I drank as much of it as possible. I didn't say anything for a while because I was honestly thinking that I was going to die. It didn't hurt, it was just alarmingly odd feeling. I felt like I was going to go to sleep and die in my sleep. I'm not trying to be dramatic at all... That's what was going through my head in a calm weird way.
So I tried to play it cool all night and I was so worried about going to sleep, I laid down and it felt
even worse. At around midnight I decided to go to the ER. The thought of going to Duke and facing all of the people that cheered me on while I lost 74 pounds made my stomach twist in knots and I cried like an embarassed little kid.
Luckily the ER wasn't busy. After sitting in the waiting room for an hour i was feeling a little but better not as sore and swollen. Once we got into a room, the doctor was really weird to me, it was very apparent that even though I had the surgery in that same hospital ... Absolutely no one there really understood what a lap band was.
My biggest fear was that I had a dialated esophagus and that I would have to get the band taken out. The ER doctor said that he would take chest xrays and maybe we should do an EKG. He asked me what I thought about it and I told him to start with the band because I really only felt pain in my esophagus. He responded with, "ok SCREW the EKG...we won't do that."
I thought that was the strangest statement I've ever heard from a doctor in my life... But it was almost 2:00 in the morning and he clearly wasn't interested in fat people's problems.
After my X-ray he said he talked to the bariatric surgeon and he's not sure, but he thinks my band may have slipped a bit. The surgeon said I could wait until 7:00 am for him to come in because it wasn't an emergency, or I could go to his office on Monday. He said he needs to take some fluid out and it should go back into place.
I asked him if my esophagus looked swollen or dialated and he said no.... but I'm honestly not convinced he could really tell either way.
I'm sad and ashamed of myself. I have a pit in my stomach thinking about facing everyone in the doctors office. I've seen the disapproving looks of too many doctors in my life who have noticed my weight losses and subsequent gains.
Today i feel a little better. i started back on the same diet regimen they gave me post op. liquid Protein and hydration all with no more than 10 sugars per 8 oz. I've taken the tiniest sips and have to stop frequently.
It's actually been good. In fact I've been thinking about it a lot today and its funny how life works. A couple of weeks ago I had an intern lie to me and I caught him. He was quite embarassed and I remember thinking about how I hoped that he learned a lesson from it..I distinctively said, "the most embarassing moments are sometimes the moments that change you for the better."
I think it's quite clever how I asked God to take over and this is what has happened. My words seem to be the only thing ill be eating this week.
Praying for a simple slip that can be fixed with the removal of some saline. Also a chance to start over with renewed motivation.
The will power from saying that prayer lasted about a half a day and I fell back into my daily binge. Just like a damn drug addict I would imagine.
Friday night, I drank a margarita and something felt weird about it. Sometimes when I drink out of a straw I get tight and gassy feeling, but this one was a little more uncomfortable. I ate a little dinner afterwards and boxed up the rest.
The next day I didn't eat until about 3:00. Took one bite and felt stuck. Not horrible stuck, just do-not-put-another-bite-near-your-mouth-for-at-least-5-minutes-stuck.
Later that night I started feeling weird. My esophagus felt swollen and I felt like I had something stuck in my throat. I tried drinking cold water, hot water with honey, and I drank as much of it as possible. I didn't say anything for a while because I was honestly thinking that I was going to die. It didn't hurt, it was just alarmingly odd feeling. I felt like I was going to go to sleep and die in my sleep. I'm not trying to be dramatic at all... That's what was going through my head in a calm weird way.
So I tried to play it cool all night and I was so worried about going to sleep, I laid down and it felt
even worse. At around midnight I decided to go to the ER. The thought of going to Duke and facing all of the people that cheered me on while I lost 74 pounds made my stomach twist in knots and I cried like an embarassed little kid.
Luckily the ER wasn't busy. After sitting in the waiting room for an hour i was feeling a little but better not as sore and swollen. Once we got into a room, the doctor was really weird to me, it was very apparent that even though I had the surgery in that same hospital ... Absolutely no one there really understood what a lap band was.
My biggest fear was that I had a dialated esophagus and that I would have to get the band taken out. The ER doctor said that he would take chest xrays and maybe we should do an EKG. He asked me what I thought about it and I told him to start with the band because I really only felt pain in my esophagus. He responded with, "ok SCREW the EKG...we won't do that."
I thought that was the strangest statement I've ever heard from a doctor in my life... But it was almost 2:00 in the morning and he clearly wasn't interested in fat people's problems.
After my X-ray he said he talked to the bariatric surgeon and he's not sure, but he thinks my band may have slipped a bit. The surgeon said I could wait until 7:00 am for him to come in because it wasn't an emergency, or I could go to his office on Monday. He said he needs to take some fluid out and it should go back into place.
I asked him if my esophagus looked swollen or dialated and he said no.... but I'm honestly not convinced he could really tell either way.
I'm sad and ashamed of myself. I have a pit in my stomach thinking about facing everyone in the doctors office. I've seen the disapproving looks of too many doctors in my life who have noticed my weight losses and subsequent gains.
Today i feel a little better. i started back on the same diet regimen they gave me post op. liquid Protein and hydration all with no more than 10 sugars per 8 oz. I've taken the tiniest sips and have to stop frequently.
It's actually been good. In fact I've been thinking about it a lot today and its funny how life works. A couple of weeks ago I had an intern lie to me and I caught him. He was quite embarassed and I remember thinking about how I hoped that he learned a lesson from it..I distinctively said, "the most embarassing moments are sometimes the moments that change you for the better."
I think it's quite clever how I asked God to take over and this is what has happened. My words seem to be the only thing ill be eating this week.
Praying for a simple slip that can be fixed with the removal of some saline. Also a chance to start over with renewed motivation.
Saturday, February 9, 2013
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