Monday, October 29, 2012

Why am I Fighting This Band?

Man I am really raging against my band today. After my stuck episode in Detroit I vowed I would never let that happen again. I've been pretty good about it, but you know somedays the band is more finicky than others.

This morning, like a drug addict, I stopped and got some breakfast on the way to work. Not sure why... the shit doesn't even taste that good. Good news is, prior to surgery I would have had a value meal and probably something else, but this time I got a hashbrown. The guy asked if I wanted two for a dollar and of course I just said sure.

First Bite, stuck. Good. Serves me right. But for some reason that didn't stop me once I got to the office. Why can't I just stop? Cold hashbrowns aren't even good! I went through the whole watery mouth thing and almost barfed in my office.

Around lunch time, instead of making a shake like I should have I got a plate of peruvian food from the Monday lunch people in our building. Ate more than enough and then stuck again. It never fails. I can't figure out why I'm doing this to myself.

I'm going to the gym tonight come hell or highwater I need to at least do something good for myself after a day of abuse.

Monday, October 1, 2012

When Life Knocks You Down ...

Woah ... just when I thought it couldn't get worse! I had some serious life altering drama last week y'all. It's way too much to get into on a blog. But shit.

I might have posted this once already but I need to post it again. I saw this on an e card recently and I swear this is my new motto:

I'm teetering on the edge of completely losing it, but I know I can keep it together. My lapband is definitely keeping me from eating my weight in garbage that's for sure. I've been trying to eat a can of tuna fish for the past 45 minutes and every bite I take gets stuck. I'll thank it later for that one.

I can't wait to see the pictures from BOOBS!! I am so so sad that I bought my ticket and then couldn't go. I had to go to California for work for a week, which was really great but I'm still so sad that I missed out. There's always next year!