Phew this year has been a crazy one but good! The weekend before New Year's Day I drank a margarita and in the days that followed my stomach and esophagus felt like they quadrupled in size. I immediately started sipping water and protein and basically followed my post-op liquid diet. I didn't panic and moved up my appt. to see my P.A. I didn't sleep for days because when I would lay down at night time, all I could do was wonder if my organs were getting severed. It was terribly painful, but was tolerable if I stuck to tiny sips of water and protein.
I was about 1 week away from my appointment and I finally just called in and let them know I needed to come in earlier. My lovely PA saw me on an off day and emptied the band completely. We talked about a lot and I talked a ton to her about everything. I specifically asked if I could have an appetite suppressant to take while my band is empty. She was happy to and I'm glad she did. I have such a hard time yo-yoing as it is, this will at least help me get through however long this band needs to be empty.
I also asked her if I could talk to someone about my serious yo-yo dieting issue. I can honestly say that weight is the only thing in my life I have not been able to overcome! It's crazy, even at 300 pounds, I never had an issue diving into whatever I wanted to. When I want to do something I figure it out and If I want to, I do it well. It's just this weight thing that I can't figure out how to overcome. I lost 70 lbs in 4 months with the lapband and then I proceeded to pile half of it back on! Then I lost it again....and then this past November, I came dangerously close to swinging back into danger zone again. I put on about 10 lbs in a month or two. Seriously, WTF? When I'm in a bad place, I'm in a bad place and I can't seem to get myself out of it. It's not depression, it's like this blind need to eat EVERYTHINNNGGG. Interestingly enough, I think my last post about my band being too tight, triggered this last episode of weight gain.
Either way, she gave me a referral and I'm excited to talk to someone in a week or two. I'll do anything it takes to make this work. I thought that having a $30,000.00 surgery would be enough for me, but apparently I need a little more than that. Oh well, no shame in it, just have to keep trying.
So, this is my second unfill since having my band. Both times, I drank a margarita from a straw and then all hell broke loose. I find that interesting because my sister has recently talked about being allergic to tequila. She said that when she drinks a margarita, her chest gets really hot and it makes her feel itchy and uncomfortable.
I have an endoscopy scheduled with my surgeon on the 27th and we'll see if there is something else going on in there. I've eaten soft foods about 4-5 times since the new year and everything else has been protein shakes. Quite frankly, I'm not even sick of them and I love losing weight like this.
I can still feel some discomfort in my band, but Prilosec and Phentramine are keeping the hunger and burning away for now. Working out is going great in fact even when I felt the worst, it was the only thing I could do to take my mind off of my organs getting smooshed.
I had a great time this past Saturday with my sweet friend Miss Hollee at a bootcamp in Durham. My shoulders are still recovering from that shit! I'm so grateful to have her in my life! Everybody needs a banded girlfriend that understands what's happening in your life.
I hope everyone else is doing fab and having a wonderful 2014.