First and foremost, today was wonderful. My face feels skinnier, I had some serious wins at work today, and I walked 2 miles at lunch, then I came home to the most wonderful comments on this blog!
The walking really felt amazing today. I broke a great sweat and was out of breath when I got back. I have always loved working out and have been very athletic, but sadly over the past few years I became so overweight that I was just plain embarrassed at how little I could actually do. I felt embarrassed getting winded on light walks with even my closest friends.
That's behind me and I'm never going back that far. I will struggle with my weight my whole life even with this band. But I will never allow myself to ever get so close to 300 pounds again. (there, I said it. ugh. My pre-op weight was 298. sick.)
Anyway, yesterday my struggle was being extra hungry all night. I nipped that in the butt today by changing my lunch choice up. Yesterday I had soup that only had 2 grams of protein for lunch. Today I packed Greek Yogurt (some more of that fab Fage plain) I mixed in peanut butter, splenda and a sprinkle of Chocolate Peanut Butter Protein powder. Oh man. Talk about amazing. I was ready for dinner when I got home but I didn't feel like I could gnaw my arm off, which I think we can all agree, is not a safe place for a fat person. ;)
Remember how I said I love cooking? Well I really do love it. If I were skinny, I would refer to myself as a foodie. I love all things food. I can watch tv shows about it, spend hours looking at food blogs, and spend even more hours grocery shopping and cooking. I have made the promise to myself that I will continue to do that. I will just cook smaller portions and take much longer to eat and enjoy my work. It is therapeutic to me to be open and honest about this. I want to lose weight, I don't want to lose a passion.
That being said, I got my cook on tonight and did not overeat and did not over taste test. Is that a Non-Scale Victory? Well I'll be damned.
I've had a few recipe ideas in my head for the past few days and I've been craving beef for some reason. I went to the grocery store and spent $4.00 on ground beef, sour cream, and re fried black beans. Can you believe that it was enough food for our dinner tonight, lunch tomorrow and possibly dinner again tomorrow! With plenty of left over ingredients to prepare more food later. HA!
I couldn't buy ground beef in a small enough amount so the butcher just gave me 1 premade hamburger patty. I knew that was going to be tough not to pop ground beef in my mouth while cooking so my sweet husband helped me cook. I asked him to keep me from tasting anything :) We make a good team.
Dinner turned out amazing. MS and I just sat and savored our little tiny dinner with our tiny forks. So, check out the links for Mexican Mush, and Smooth Lasagna! I'll probably continue to make these recipes as we move onto soft foods.
Thank you so much for following my journey, reading about my drama and cheering me on. I can't even explain how great it feels!