Thursday, January 19, 2012

It's All in My Head

AHHHHH!!! HEAD HUNGER!!!! I am definitely getting hungrier as the days go on, but being a lifelong overeater I distinctly know the difference between being hungry and wanting to eat.

I do webcasts for a living . After my 11:30 webcast this morning I ripped open a chicken salad kit and didn't even take it to the kitchen to drain the can of chicken. I was starving. I chewed very well, but I literally ate that thing in about 5 minutes. There were no issues with it going down whatsoever.

That filled me up nicely and after I ate, I ran to the store to pick up a few items. Now that I'm back at my desk my head hunger is out of control! Thank God I don't have any snacks in my office because I would probably be ripping through them right now.

What in the world? Why do I feel like this? I feel like an animal or something. I feel like the strong sensible part of me is sitting here shaking my head a myself while holding back the wild child inside me that's screaming, "I WANT SOMETHING TO EAT" Wierd. Be stong sensible one, be strong.

It's definitely time for an adjustment!


  1. Ahhhh You reached the infamous BANDSTER HELL! I have read so much about it and it sounds like it's reared it's ugly head upon you. I hope it gets easier. When is your first fill slated for? I start my 2 week Optifast Preop tomorrow and I-am-so-dreading-it. Keep strong and eat a healthy snack later if you can.

  2. Noooo! I hear this happens you poor thing...stay strong! Fill up on some good protein chickeee! I am sending you lots of good vibes and hope you pull through without a gain!!!!

  3. I soooo hear you!!! 2 weeks liquid diet for pre op...2 weeks liquids and soups on post op...I am 14 days out from surgery tomorrow and I too know I cannot over eat but I am so flippen hungry ( head hungry!!) I know I can't handle anything too solid and I know I need to get in at least 50 grams of protein and I have been making some yummy soup, but I just want something else...I don't know what just something I haven't measured, logged, added protein to or puréed to a pulp and liquified with chicken broth!!! Ahhhh!!!!! Lisa was it you who had the chips taunting you??? I feel ya!! Ok now enough... I am done ranting...I will add meatballs to my pureed veggie soup and freeze it in ice cube trays so I have lunch tomorrow...I will get dressed and go for a 2 mile walk while child number 2 is at soccer practice...I will drink more water, crystal light and hot tea before I go to bed and I will carry on successfully for 4 more weeks...that is when I get my first fill!!! Lord help us all as we strengthen our self control...